I wrote this on Labor Day weekend 2026, with Halloween in mind for the sound. I used a cello sound on my keyboard as well as harpsichord, drums, and a spooky sound effect you hear throughout the song, as well as my vocals. A song about heartbreak, betrayal, healing and severing toxic relationships/friendships and breaking away from the collective system of hate and fear.

I started the keyboard drums and keyboard effects last Saturday (10/25/25) and finished the rest today (11/1/25). You may notice, very little editing was done. I let this one be more raw than the others and the voices were improvised and not the best they could be, but I feel they fit well for this song. I was watching the film Drive, at the time of recording. I found myself having my own adventure, while the song and lyrics came to me. The light fun feeling, kind of took a turn with the lyrics at the end. ;) I was feeling Gorillaz-esque as I was creating it as well, but wasn't intentionally trying to create something they'd do, just kind of crept up on me really. To sum up, I wanted it to sound raw, vulnerable, mentally unstable and imperfect, to depict how honest I wanted it to feel.

I wrote this little number in it's entirety, on 3/22/25 and finished mixing and recording it 3/26/25. When writing the lyrics, I was reflecting on different relationships throughout my life, realizing I have emotional walls (which I already knew) due to past hurts; I think everyone does to a certain degree. I think the message is very relatable to a wide audience. The very beginning of writing the song started with just the drum beat, then everything else fell into place.

I initially had this idea in my head as an Acapella piece, when I first wrote it in 2011 (it's been revised since the first recording, but finished this one today 4/5/25), but the instruments came into my head a bit after, so I had to include them. It was inspired by the not so highly rated film Xanadu. Loved the idea of the film and the music, even if it was a bit corny.